i'm not used to be being all emo and depressed on my blog. but i fucking cant help it today.
it is by far one of the worst friday ever. and the rain is not helping.
well let's see.. being forced to clear leave. (yes.. FORCED coz i have NOTHING PLANNED. and dun envy me coz it's not 

FUCK!!! even when i blogged. my net SCREW ME! 

URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

just a random urge to post smth on my secret online space.

i had a great talk with my favourite role model from the company. she's none other den yin. project manager and she was in charge of setting up the quality system in the facility. from day 1 when i stepped in. out fresh from school. just like a baby who is just learning to walk.
everything was new and would poke my nose into everything. and she was arnd, since the start to the prep to the d-day and planning of the near future. shes definitely someone i looked up to at work.

So coming back for one last time as the project. things are not the same anymore. we have lost abt 20 plus minus colleagues here and there. and people are not as civil as they were when we all just started. when we started the catch-up so they call it. she could sense that things here arent the same anymore. the atmosphere is more tense and people here are not really happy. and i was surprised. so i poured out my concerns and... i learn alot. got motivated alot. and comforted alot.

the learnings are not to my surprise.

1) learn to let go

 wow. it's the rabbit year again. the last rabbit year i was only taking my psle. on full cycle of the zodiac is a reallly long time! and yes. this means..i'm getting really grown up. 2011 marks the 2nd cycle of the zodiac. means i'm going to be 24! and 25 in the chinese way... this year aint suppose to be a good year coz it's my year. and therefore the god of the year will be jealous with the ppl born on this year. thus every year the zodiac representative luck will be bad. old traditions. take them with a pinch of salt yar. (:

so anyway... cny super long weekend has come and gone. boooo!!! ):
大年初一 went to daddy quek side to 拜年... was a little upset that the relatives which we always eat our favourite teochew food. are either not arnd or cannot go. ): so actually..we settled lunch at serenecentre mac. can u believe it. how tragic is that. but lo and behold. at our last stop there was that dish there!!! so happy!!!! daddy quek's family is really too huge to count or remember their name or faces. i am actually a grand aunt. meaning my uncles are actually GREAT-granddads. imagine the age gaps. owell... done visiting pretty early at abt 4+?
returned winston's mj session like finally!!! after sooo long. got wins toad and jm over to play mj. 

初二 was much simplier when it comes to visiting. coz mummy side will all gather at one relative's place and thats it. so was there for lunch... hang arnd with the usual, wad are u doing now? got boyfren? ur brother getting married, when will u bring ur boyfren over? omg. maybe coz i'm supposedly next in line. (note the age gap thing yet agn) the closest age gap is my brother, younger one is in army. so i'm stuck being the only 20+ 2nd generation there. bahhh...afterwhich went over to lina's house for a short gathering. she jio mj..but i wasnt really much into the gambling.. more of.. just saying hi and such.. so mange to meet some ppl whom havent met for soo long!!! like pong and junlao and lina herself. so it was exactly a wasted trip. 
the best was BLACK SWAN movie at night! it was a drop dead cool show! and it's pretty thrilling! abit out of my expectation. hahha.. (: i likey. and needless to say. portman was gorgeous in the show. no wonder it won the grammys. 4 out of 5 popcorn worth! ((: havent really watched a good show these days. 

the 3rd and 4th day was just exchange visits. thank goodness for the weekends. it was well spent.
and the big news. there aint going to be a public hol until mid april!!! AAAARRRGGGHHHH!!!! time to slog at work.

 was a lonely period stuck in pulau n*tu slogging my life away smelling acetone and battling reactions.
columns were my best fren.
den along came polly.  (:

 days fly by like lallangs in the wind. looking forward to the weekends every monday and hoping that monday dun come during sundays. whoever said that getting out of school = freedom. it's kinda a bluff. school, u can always just take MC and "claim" them.. but in office.. u have to think twice even before taking it. we can just ponned school and in the case of uni.. nobody really cares. but work how to pon. tsk* i'm not complaining becoz i dun like my job. job is fine. fun working with the vonderful bunch of ppl. all very warm and willing to help. i think regardless how much u "lovvve" ur job. i'm sure i love not working more. =P 

for my dear readers. the LION KING play is coming to singapore!!! *excites 
i cant contain my excitement AT ALL and i want to watch the play i want i want i wantttttt *whines*this is THE one. broadway musical style. but it's only coming next year march!!! (: *hint*hint* MARCH! hahaha..
ok lar..showing all the way till may. in fact..i think it's not that expensive. coz back in usa. it was abt that kind of price and it was in USD! hahaha... so see u lion king!! woohhooo... 

 alright. i think i' gg to be very incoherent. coz it has been a really long time since i wrote anything here. and i know readers who are bored online have limited places to go. hahah. but heyy! here i am again *surprise! hahah

well well.. where should i start, i've started work at p m i. as QA. i love that place. the welfare is pretty shiok. nice hot chocolates/coffee/drinks there. with "ice-cream" biscuit! super old school. ((=
and the work culture there is very new. everyone in the company is kinda "new" coz they just established the place and i think the longest person arnd only worked with the co for like wad.. 5 months? so it's been a good exp, and i like it when we are the ones setting the culture. oh yar. i'll be at science park 2. so anyone's there or near there..pls come look for me. lunch is very boring. i'm back to eating ban mian and best bites. my best fren when in science park 1. hahaha... but they dun even have starbucks there!!! )= tragic. so yar.. weekdays are pack with work. and all u want to do after work is pretty much just a nice warm bath and rolling on the bed. i think tt's a good hobby everyone should pick up. HAHA

weekends are more exciting. for instance. just this weekend. there was the big hype for singa poref.one!!!! woohoo. nicely falling btw 24-26sept. well planned eh. *heh so yupp.. first time @ the race itself. went for sat and sun. sat was more like a reccee session. walked to the many good spots caught the practice races and porche races. i was being super smart alec. didnt buy the survivor kit initially coz i tot i could take the vroom vroom sound. it was bearable at first.. but when it's coming at u every 2sec. it's quite hard to take. so got it for sunday itself. wheee*


caught daughtry and lambert. came for THEM lo. damn good. not so much of lambert coz he kissed on stage AGAIN. damn gay. love daughtry ttm!!! he sang his hit "over you" and everyone sang along. damn niceeee....

as for sunday race. camped at THE SPOT since 3-4pm. and got a damn good view of the turn. enjoyed the race alot!! saw a few over takes and a crash!! shioks. talked to some of the hard core f.one fans. and got to learn more abt it. interesting. next year, it wont be walkabout anymore. *damn right. hahaha... the after race concert was mariah. was looking forward to it..coz she's ppl's teenage dream. and oh! did i mention.. i got the fan zone band!! muahahah!! so even if it's crowded at the fan zone.. the fans all zoomed in front. and stood at the back lot of the zone. spacious and near. wonderful. BUT one problem. she got big. like really big. reminds me of sister act. hahah.  watched for a while only coz it's a bloody sunday!! and monday blue is setting in!!! *booooooo

so yup. no more big hype. see u next year!!! weekends will be more quality time now. 

when i was younger, i tot isnt it great to grow up. so u can go out till late,  earn money and buy things. eat drink and be merry like the ppl in the tv shows. but now being in the transition of a student to a working adult. (yes i know...i still havent found a career path yet. and this sad disappointing truth is hitting me). i find this childhood "dream" of mine was really indeed a dream.

i do admit, i got the freedom i want. but freedom comes with responsibility. i know that if i were to stay out. i better inform the queks my whereabouts. so they need not worry. it's more of my responsibility now then a rule my parents set. i used to hang outside doing nothing, but now, i'd rather be somewhere quiet and comfortable. 

being to buy things feels good. the spending power i have may not be very high, but as compared to when i'm still in school is tonnes better. well tt's i gotta work long hours doing boring stuffs. and i realise... money is indeed hard earned. dun believe in tv shows. the ppl in there can do nothing every episodes but fall in love, fight for inheritance, make bread. if only life was THAT simple. 

i know this is not gg to some kind of major discovery. just smth i felt over the period.  suddenly dawn upon me that adults(yes.. tt's u and me!) tend to smile less. so if u find urself not smiling or laughing out loud at least once a day... u are officially grown up.

this is an absolute random post and thought.